
O.k. - so life is much different now.
I am home alone tonight, my boys are with the mad scientist, at his house. I worked all day and I am tired. HOWEVER.....................................
I am learning to relax.
I am not hearing:
"Mom, can you ---??" or "Mom, I want ---!!" or "Mom, tell him to stop ----!!"(fill in the blanks)
And boy is it quiet.
I can finally breathe. I can almost sleep thru the whole night without my babies under my roof. I can stay up til at least 10p.m. (and not cry myself to sleep at 7p.m. cuz I am so worried about my kids or miss them). UGH That part really sucks! But I am adapting. I am learning to enjoy the silence. I am learning to sit down, put my feet up and have beer and chips for dinner.
I can smile and laugh again. I have the best job ever (life is very good when you like your job!) I am surviving on my own (Thanks Mom and Dad, lets hope I am over the hump!) My rent and car payment (yes, a car payment :o/) are current and my children have finally completed 3 grades in one school!! Stability....i'm doin it!
In fact I am so stable (and have been smoke-free for over 1 year!! yay me!!) that my rear end is getting VERY stable! I've gained some weight..lol..
Life is hard...but I think if you get on the right path, there are times when ya slide...and the wind in your face makes you smile.